Is That All There Is?

My life is very good. I am happier, on the whole, than I've been in a long time. Longer than I can remember -- maybe ever.

Yet deeper inside, there is a certain darkness. It is metaphorical and metaphysical. It's less a feeling than a sense: a sense, perhaps, of meaninglessness. Perhaps of emptiness. If you prefer large words, perhaps of The Numinous in an ontologically apophatic way.

I think this may perhaps be what Thomas Merton conceived of as "le point vierge". As for me, I call it the darkness. The part of yourself that even you don't know; though you may be aware of it precisely because of its apparent "absence."

The best comprehensions or descriptions of it come not from theology or philosophy, but often from popular song.